Selfish

It's one of those days were I don't feel like being around people. I've felt that way for a couple of days. I just want some time alone to read, sleep, eat- all by myself. But, God reminded me that it's not always about what I what I want. It's not always about how I feel. I can think, ''I don't want to deal with your problem today, I want to be alone.'' But the ministry is all about people. It's about encouraging and edifying. It doesn't always matter what you think you need, it's about doing what you know God, who knows best, wants you to do for Him.

Why are we so afraid to admit weakness? Why are we afraid people will think less of us when they realize we're not perfect? No one's perfect, so why can't we admit it?

Pride.

We're too prideful. We have to be perfect or we seem to fall apart because then we realize that we're not perfect like we think people think we are.

Just because all of the world is a stage, doesn't mean we have to act all the time.

Recitals and Cupcakes

So, I had my last recital here on Saturday. I was surprised at how it went down. I'm just satisfied that God let me play for Him. I didn't completely freak out, and that is an act of God. Normally, I freak out and can't stop shaking the entire time. Didn't really shake till the end. And I even played a song from memory. I can finally look back on a recital with a fond memory. Weird. After the recital was a chili dinner. I'm glad we got to stay and hang out with other people. And there were cupcakes, so no complaints there.

People kept asking me, ''Where are you going to college?'' me:''I have no idea.'' them:''Oh... I'll be praying for you.''

It'd be nice to know. Really nice. Really really nice. *sigh* Man, I feel old right now.

Bowing out gracefully can be hard.

Oh, Facebook

What would we do without you?

I was just reading on a fan page about forwarding those texts about having to send it because God will love you or something. Anyway, there were a lot of non-Christians on there talking about how they think God isn't real, yada yada yada. Someone on there had a very good point, though.

''hey - (and anyone else who wants to look), I'm so sorry that you have such a bad opinion of Christians. its our fault that we don't show Christ's love enough and that we can be seen as real bigots and morons. i apologize that because of our sins, you've been given a wrong view of God's pure love.i noticed that you asked the question why we don't just kill ourselves to be with God since that's what we believe. the answer to that is you. God loves you, and He commands His children to show and spread His love. He knows you so much better than even you know yourself. it breaks His heart that you haven't come to know Him. i pray (and i really mean that) that you will come to know Him as your Lord and Savior.''

''I wonder, have I cared enough for others, or have I let them die alone? I might have helped a wanderer to the Saviour, the seed of precious life I might have sown. How many are the lost that I have lifted? How many are the chained I've helped to free? I wonder have I done my best for Jesus when He has done so much for me?''- Have I done My Best for Jesus

''The answer to that is you.'' God didn't immediately take us to heaven when we got saved because we're here to reach the lost. If you were on trial for being a Christian, would there be enough evidence?