Why in the world do I always want either what I can't have or don't need? Why am I always on the lookout for something better or different? I think things like, "I could be going to a different college to study political sciences but I'm going to Bible college" and "Why do awesome things always happen to other people and not me?"
Yet in the back of my mind I always know why. I haven't learned "in whatsoever state I am therewith to be content." My flesh is never satisfied. The old man's wants and desire haven't died. At the beginning of the school year, I heard a sermon about complaining. When God's children complain it's like we're telling God that we refuse His providence and what He's provided. That makes me feel horrible! Maybe it's time I apply that.
No, I may not be doing what I want, but what God wants is what's best for me and I need to be grateful for His leading hand.
it is true that we all fight with ourselves about just that, what we want rather then what we should want to want. what helped me out when i struggle with this is to adapt the mindset of seeing the world through blind men's eyes and grasping the world with beggar's hands. but in all, first and foremost, Matt 6:33. I hope my comment helps.
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